So... my Uncle (on my Mom's side - her brother) passed away a week ago yesterday in a manner VERY similar to how my Dad passed. The funeral was Saturday. I wasn't all that close to my Uncle - I don't know why... but it has hit me like a ton of bricks. I lost it at the funeral and made an ass out of myself, that was embarassing....
I guess it is just an avalanche - you can only repress for so long before it forces its way out. It isn't something I want to talk about, it just needs to work itself out I think. I vow this though NO MORE FUNERALS for awhile! So NO ONE ELSE DIE... GOT IT?
Anyway.... I have always meant for this to be positive - but I just don't feel positive... about anything.... not right now anyway. I decided to just give myself a break so I can shake it off... suck it up.... rub some dirt in it... whatever and move on. I don't know how long it is going to take. I am doing the water aerobics class once a week. I get some exercise around the house with the kids and when I am out with clients. If I gain some weight back, so be it. The holidays are coming - I'll just have to try to not TOTALLY lose it...
Damn my husband for buying junk food..... DAMN him!
One thing you might want to think about is not giving your self too much of a break. :) I only say this because sometimes it's better to keep exercising to help you deal with the different emotions you are having. I find I deal with things much better if I'm probably exercised.
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Just letting you know you've got some great support here! Call if you need to talk. Anytime! And taking a break is sometimes exactly what you need. So hang in there and try to enjoy the hiatus. :) You're entitled to have feelings. Remember to you are not a superwoman. You are a Super Woman with Feelings! :)
ReplyDeleteOh yeah...And you ROCK!
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